I’m burned out, you guys. Today, as I was looking through my scheduled posts for the next month and a half, my entire being stopped wanting to do anything. Having a million other things to do doesn’t help the situation, and all I want to do ever is scroll through Facebook even though it makes me feel more like crap (my inner Marketing nerd cringes at the thought of Facebook, yet I’m addicted). I blame everything on the emotional things that have been going on in my life, because it’s easy, because I don’t want to get bitter and shove it down, because it’s at the forefront of my mind every single day. I will be the first to tell you that I love everything that I’m doing. Actually all last year, I dreamed that this year would be exactly how it is turning out. But I didn’t factor in two things: Number one, that I would be bogged down in so much STUFF, and number two, that my heart would feel this rachet.
I don’t want to complain. I feel like I complain too often on this blog. The reality is though, there are probably a butt load of people who feel the same way, and maybe it would help to know that I feel like crap too.
What am I going to do about it? There has been more than one time in the past two weeks that I have either watched a video or read a blog post that have encouraged people who are sad to get busy. Does this really work? Is it a short-term fix? Maybe it is. But I’m more than ready for something to change in my life. I’m done with expecting my life to get perfect any time soon. NEWS FLASH: My life will never be perfect (until I die and go to Heaven) so I better get used to it.
On the flipside, I have a whole dang lot of dreams going on right now. It is time for me to stop focusing on the one thing in my life that absolutely SUCKS and start focusing on the dozens of things in my life that absolutely DON’T SUCK. (And by “don’t suck”, I mean are completely fantastic.)
What would happen if I listed all of those things? Even just listing ten would help me understand the reality of my situation right now. I’ve never really thought about this before (because of the cliche factor and everything), but I think I’m going to do it. And on top of that, I’m going to make sure I remember all of those things and possibly even act on each of them every single day.
Why would I do this? I’m not doing it to hide the sadness, I’m not one for that. I’m not doing it to make myself feel better. I’m not doing it to make myself appear to be happier than I really am. I’m doing it because God has blessed me and I’m just not seeing it these days. One thing God has taken away from me. Just one. And He’s given me so much more. So why the heck am I not seeing it?
That’s why I want to make this list. As soon as possible actually. To thank God for everything He’s given me because it’s about time.
P.S. I’m switching my blog to a domain on Wednesday so stay tuned for that! I’m super excited to get over to that, it will be a blast! And I half-promise not to switch the design every third day, hold me to it, okay?